Never Forsaken

    As a Christian, I've heard over and over again how well God knows us, all of us, even the secrets we keep, our chaotic emotions, all of it. I think I've said on here a few times too. It's strange to think about how someone can know us so well. I've spent my whole life at home and there are so many things that my parents and my siblings don't know about. I'm in a new friendship and relationship where I feel so known but in reality we still have so much to talk about and discover. It's exciting and intimidating and I'm looking forward to what the future holds. With God though, He knows everything. He sees my shame and my joy and my fears and my dreams and most importantly, He loves me for it. He knows me better than I know myself and it never ceases to amaze me. 

    I talk about dreams all the time on here, I know, but they're something I think about a lot. All of my posts from this past year have been about dreaming and figuring out how to go after them, whether it be practically or just being brave enough to do it. I know that, like I said in my last post, there are times when you have to make the decision for yourself, that God isn't going to bring everything to you. Sometimes just getting up and being brave is more important to you and your life. God's plan and His presence are always there to guide you but He isn't going to choose for you. That said, His plan is beautiful and wonderful. He knows what's best for you, even you have questions and doubts. Letting go leads to so much peace and though I have so many questions about the specifics, I know that all the details are being taken care of. 

    Sorry if it seems like I do this a lot. I know I spend far to much time overthinking and holding on to unnecessary emotions. I go back and forth on this topic all the time but really, really. God is good and the more I live and breathe and talk to Him, the more I realize that I'm deeply loved and not alone. People have been placed in my life to build me up faster than I could ever break myself down and to love me for the mess that I am. My stress and tiredness aren't everything and as much as I worry, God keeps giving me peace that things will work out. I know they will, as often as I doubt, but it's always nice to be assured. 

    God does have a plan. He knows the dreams you have and I think He gives you some of those dreams too. There are dreams and thoughts I've had that I never really shared with anyone. They were small things that I would go back to every once in a while but like most of my other dreams, they felt unrealistic and impossible. As big as God is, there's no reason for Him to do those things. They were small and though significant to me, I didn't think they were that big of a deal but God is faithful. He knew just what I needed and wanted and I have been blessed beyond my expectations. There will always be something to work out but I have so much hope for the future and so much peace about it. 

    No matter what happens, there's provision for the choices you make and don't make. He is faithful to see you through. I've been listening to a lot of worship lately and the song I keep coming back to is Here Again by Elevation Worship. A lot of the time when people talk about God meeting you where you are, I think it's meant for the hard times and bad days. It's very much true but God is just as capable of meeting you in the good times as well and giving you the peace and the joy that you need. He promises to be with you wherever you go. 

    There's probably more that I could say about all of this, as I feel I may have been at least a little vague at some points. However, I'm starting to feel like I'm repeating myself so continuing is probably best left for another time. Just know that there is a plan and a purpose for everything that happens and that you are greatly loved. 

Yours Truly,

Rey