Growth in what's unknown.

     Happy one hundredth post! Before I get into it too much, thank you to everyone who has read this little blog! Writing is a selfish habit for me, even my fiction stories I treat as journaling in some ways. I write about the things that I see and go through. I write about what I'm feeling. Blogging has been a safe outlet for me. I started it mostly from watching Julie and Julia but it's come so far since then. I was on the edge of sixteen when I started, which is terrifying to think about because I'll be twenty this year. I've been through so much and things are so different. Maybe that's silly to say, because, duh, it's been four years, but sometimes I forget that my life was really like that once upon a time, good or bad. The past just feels like a dream because of how much things have changed. There's a lot that's the same though. Obviously I'm still writing and this is still my dream but I'm so much better than I used to be. There's a lot that I could still work on but that's why I'm here every week. I want to get better at this, to experiment and grow with my voice. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to be heard, even in a selfish endeavor. 

    The title of this blog which I genuinely forget about sometimes is Acatalepsy. It used to be my favorite word, now I don't think I have one. It's origin is Greek and it means an inability to comprehend, incomprehensibleness. That's what my faith is about. In Revelation 4, there's a verse that talks about the angels in heaven who proclaim God's goodness without cease. I've heard a lot of people say that this is because they're always discovering something new about who God is and they can say, without tire, "Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God, the Almighty, who was and who is and who is to come." And really, if you read every post of this blog, I'd say the title is still an accurate description. I'm learning in everything that I do, in writing, in my faith, in adulthood and relationships. There's so much to this life and to who I am and as intimidating as the future is, I'm excited for it too. Granted, that's not always the case, but in becoming more sure of who God is, I'm finding more peace in the seasons I keep going on about. There's so much I don't understand but I'm learning that it really is okay.

    Don't get so caught up worrying about the unknown. There's more to life than fears and uncertainties. There's so much we could never understand or comprehend but that does not mean that God is not good or that He won't keep His promise to work everything for your good. Just love Him, make the decision to live according to the purpose He has for you. Let yourself hope, allow something to be made out of nothing or out of something small. Live your life for His glory and stop worrying so much about the future. Live your life as a foundation for God to build on. 

    If I can give you any advice, it's to go after your dreams. I know there's a lot to this but I've discovered how important it is to begin. Life is what happens now, not one day. If you want to start a blog or a business or even a relationship then do it. Dress up if you want to, get up at six a.m. and go for a walk or work out. Start reading your bible every day. Do everything with gladness and excellence. Keep doing what you love. I'm at the point in my life where I just want to go after the things that I care about, to do things that are important to me. Obviously be smart about it. If you see something that you like or want then you can get it but don't go over the top; steward your money wisely. Be aware of your friendships and who you're investing in and who will actually invest in you. Just start somewhere.  Don't do what makes you happy because we can become so selfish chasing something as fleeting as happiness, do something that matters. Create. Begin. Celebrate the small victories. Take courage. 

    Compared to a lot of blogs, one hundred posts isn't a lot and four years isn't a long time but it means the world to me to have come so far. I don't get many views on here but that's not what it's for. I want God to use me and this small offering and I know that He'll be faithful no matter what it looks like. I'm doing what I love and learning from it, I can't really ask for more than that. No matter what, I'm glad that I started this. Beginning is never a mistake, even if it's done in uncertainty. That's where faith comes in, where you find room to grow and develop. There's space in newness and in waiting. There's grace for starting as much as for endings. No matter where you are, you have so much to look forward to, even if you don't know what it looks like.

    Thank you to everyone for every read! I hope that in the mess and disarray that is this blog was able to encourage you at some point. I hope you know how loved and important you are, as well as how appreciated. Thank you!

Yours Truly,

Rey